Its been so long since i last blogged. Firstly, thanx to my sis who spent hours helping me to 'beautify' my blog at 3am last night. She is really the 'HTML QUEEN'. -.-
I've alwaes enjoyed penning down my thoughts. But after my marriage starts failing, i occupied myself by doing things ALL the time. Yes, im avoiding. But i have to. My heart is dying.
Basically, my marriage is failing bcoz of our characters. NO 3RD PARTY IS INVOLVED. Yes, we do love one another alot. But many times, we juz simply refuse to giv in to one another.Call me over-posessive and sensitive. I'm nv unreasonable. I juz tend to care more than i should. He is my everything. I gave birth to the fruit of our love and No woman will do it easily. He saw me going through the pain. But he nv cherish me. Is it bcoz im fat? He said no. but i doubt it.
We went to the zoo yesterday. Honestly, i din expect him to ask Dev & Mike along. And he din even ask me at all. Isn't it obvious that he doesn't wanna spend time alone wif me and our son? Yes, im glad that Dev and Mike came. But shouldn't he be making use of all chances he can grab hold on to to juz spend time wif me?
At night, i checked his hp. i know i shouldn't. but i really want to know who else is he seeing when im waiting foolishly for him. Guess what i found? A pic of the girl he once loved right b4 me. HAHAHA. I smsed him. And deep in my heart, im glad that he explained. He told me that they met up in a group. But is there a need to keep her pic? He said that the reason he kept is juz so that when she calls, her face will appear.
That girl is a b!tch. She actually gave my hubby a completed jigsaw puzzle of two chipmunks when she knows of my existence as his then-gf. She totally did not respect MY existence. Another guy liked her for 4 years during secondary school and she din try hard to make him give up. And there's another guy who expressed his love for her and she din even tell him that she is attached. I know coz all these idiots are in the same group of friends.
Oh, i forgot to mention that hubby did smashed that jigsaw puzzle right in front of me when i confronted him. I REALLY HOPE SHE KNOWS WHO SHE IS AND WILL SEE THIS.
Actually he also told me that even if we divorce, he will nv 'go back' to that bitch. But who knows?
Now, i juz wanna lose till my pre-pregnancy weight. I WANT TO BE MARRIED, GAVE BIRTH, AND BEAUTIFUL!!
